Modern heart stealer...
Before when I wasn’t in
love I use to feel the presence of future. I was a great dreamer, always
dreaming of my hopes and desires. I used to decide my plans and dreamed of
being a conceited woman amongst the crowd. I thought of being a supportive
family member helping my innocent brothers and sisters and my beloved
hardworking mother and assiduous father. I use to feel their love and care at
the deepest core of my heart, their advices, their hard work , their compassionate
love, touching feelings, their high anticipations. It’s after the entire
situation changed reversing those real beauty of the life, contemplating to the
worldly attachments.
I have fallen in love
with an unseen guy unbelievably abstract love. Blindly exchanged feelings,
ignoring the supportive nature precisely believing in the unseen thoughts and
attractively heart touching words. Clinging on the innocence, without thinking
about the latterly bad things I loved him unconditionally probably my ever
roused feelings. After fallen in love with him I attended most of my
concentration to his feelings neglecting my dear parent’s words and action,
apathetic to do my works to achieve my dreams and disregarding the concerns of
my loveable siblings.
Without thinking that
love with attachments would be that difficult, I have given my trust. The fact
wasn’t like how I thought; intangibly it’s all about five minute pleasures
weighing itself with my profound devotion. I believe I ascertained the one
sided love never meant to blame the relation but somehow was thrust up. The
relation was not able to hold my trust it revolved my faith to mistrust. From
which I knew don’t ever let self trust be upon others because trust is the
greatest compliment then love, trust self and love others. It dwelled me in a
traumatic depression for more than two months, may be a stepping stone for the
other round.
But it’s not a fault of
karma it’s one’s own heedlessness, not being able to know the reminiscent or
difference of self with other persons. If life happens to ensue it with the way
I have described I will reason out most of the break downs must be of that
personal discrepancy. The genuinely recognizable certainty of life is that
partners are meant for pleasure as their lip talks were condensed to prove it
is meant for emotional support, physical prop up and mental console. But as far
as I have seen and known 5 out of 100 may dissolve their cravings to the
enlightening purposes however other 95 would be seeking for self love only
without taking to heart the value of other person’s commitments, character,
need for survival and reputations.
It is all about how
people’s perspective of life’s truth has been revealed to me. Bartering or
exchanging my profound devotion with short term pleasure dodges.
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